Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Easing My Way Back into Things

I did the elliptical for 20 minutes tonight.  I feel a lot better and the tightness in my chest didn't come.  Awesome!

I will start lifting again tomorrow.  Tonight I'm cutting stuff out and getting ready to sew a bit.

I'm finishing up some crafting swaps this week and next, and after that, I will be missing from the internet for a while.  I need to re-focus life a bit.  Much love ...

Monday, March 21, 2011

I'm a Liar

I didn't actually make it to the gym last week.


I just did cardio for 15 minutes and, at that point, started feeling tight in my chest (almost asthmatic) so I quit.  The bronchitis and cough aren't 100% gone and that proved it, but it also felt REALLY good to get back in there.  Right now, I feel amazing.  Hyper.  Want to go run some more, but I think that would be a bad idea given the cold and the chest problem.

Carlos stopped me on my way out and asked when I'd sign up again.  There's this little thing called money that I don't have enough of, but if I did?  I'd sign up again today. 

As it is, I have written down every exercise I've done with every trainer over the 18 months I've been doing this off and on and am going to spend a little time tonight creating a workout and eating plan for the next two weeks.  This will be a good time to do it, since I am teaching a class at church on Sunday, which is something completely out of my comfort zone, so having a plan should help me avoid stress eating!  I hope!

Off to get cleaned up. 

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

wednesday already?

The cough is finally a bit better today.  I am not pushing myself to the gym tonight but I will be there tomorrow, come heck or high water, even if it's just a short cardio workout.

However ... The last few days, I've been feeling better emotionally.  Like my postpartum depression is finally gone (9 months after Bitty's birth).  I've been *cooking* and *cleaning* and putting laundry away and feeding my kids healthy stuff and NOT going out to eat. 

During my pregnancy and the depression that followed, we ate a lot of prepared things and ate out a lot.  Which were contributing to the mess of my body but also our finances.  I'm ashamed of myself and how any "excuse" made it OK to eat junk.  

I've made dinner every night this week so far and I have baked bread so I've been able to eat lunches without too much trouble.  I finally feel like I have a handle on things, or that if the handle slips a bit, I can grab it back before too much is damaged. 

This is probably something I will continue to struggle with, but right now, I feel hopeful for the future.  Which is different and better than I've felt for a long time.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

What a week

Runner Girl had her followup at the foot doctor on Monday and is cleared for any and all physical activities.  We had planned to start training, but guess what?  We are all sick.  Nasty stuff.  I went to the doctor and got drugs, and then Little Mister had to have a filling done ... well.  He chewed his lip while it was numb and it got seriously infected, so now he's on meds too.  So far, Bitty and Runner Girl are the least sick of all of us. 


OK, so I'm done with my free sessions with the other trainers.  I won't lie, cost is a factor in me not continuing on with them, but the bigger problem?  My consistency got shot to heck while I was traveling so far to train, and so did my diet, because it was right during dinner and no one was helping cook because the littles required so much attention.  My commute added an hour onto my training time, so I was gone for about two hours every time I went.  The littles freaked out and were not having any of it when I tried to go out the next night to just do cardio.  They seem to do better at home and with me leaving if I am only gone 45 to 60 minutes and I do it every night. 

It's all about balance and priorities, and while my health is one of my top priorities, so are my babies.  I have to take care of them, too.  So, starting tomorrow, I am back to Gold's with a bunch more exercise ideas.  Tonight, I'm going to plan out what I'm doing this week, diet and exercise wise, and see what happens. 

Wednesday, March 2, 2011


DisGrace got new jeans for Christmas and gave me her old pair. They fit pretty well, better than all of my other jeans, though they were a tad snug straight from the dryer. Today I pulled them out of the dryer and they weren't snug!!  And later, I pulled them off without undoiing them!!!

The scale is not reflecting this progress, but I'm sure that's because of the muscle building I've been doing.  It is more compact than fat, you know.  Eventually that number has to go down, but right now I'm not stressing over it.